Thoughts out loud

The short answer? I don’t really know. But although I am short, my answers usually aren’t…

A few years ago, I used to think I was a manifestation guru. I had experienced half the things I wanted in life, tried everything I was curious about, and was blissfully and gratefully living the life I had envisioned—until, of course, I wanted something else. 😊

I used to create vision boards, meditate, and visualize things happening. I would pray and ask God to shift destinies so I could get what I wanted. And honestly? Miracles did happen—either bringing me what I desired or protecting me from what I thought I wanted when things didn’t go as planned. I’m sure many of you reading this have felt the same.

But over time, I’ve come to see things differently. I no longer believe I have the power to manifest things out of thin air, but I do believe I have the power to create. Creation is about making choices—the journey between who I am and who I want to become.

For example, if I want to be fit, I go to the gym, eat clean, sleep early, and adjust my lifestyle to align with that vision. If I want to make money, I look for opportunities and take action. When we truly desire something, both consciously and subconsciously, we start working toward it.

So why does it work sometimes and not others? Maybe the key is paying close attention to what works and what doesn’t. I believe that anything tied to personal development or self-improvement can happen—if we identify the behaviors or thought patterns we need to change in order to evolve.

What About Miracles? What About Praying?

This is where things get interesting. If everything is about action and creation, then where do miracles fit in? And what about prayer?

I used to believe that miracles were divine interventions—moments when the universe or God decided to step in and rearrange things in my favor. And maybe that’s still true. But what if miracles aren’t as random as we think? What if they are just the result of the right energy, timing, and effort aligning in ways we can’t fully understand?

Prayer, on the other hand, is something I still hold onto. Not as a wish list but as a connection. A surrender. A way of reminding myself that while I can create and take action, I am not in control of everything. There are forces greater than me, and sometimes, the best thing I can do is let go, trust, and have faith that things will unfold as they should—even when they don’t go my way.

And maybe that’s the balance.

Maybe life is a dance between creating what we can and trusting what we cannot. Between putting in the effort and knowing when to surrender. Between doing the work and believing that, sometimes, the universe meets us halfway.

So, is it manifesting, praying, or creating?

Maybe it’s all three. Maybe it’s none.