Thoughts out loud

The world around me is falling apart, but I am still okay.

I am not okay with what’s happening, the kids, the blood, the injustice, and evil… I am okay in my inner world…

You’d ask me, and I have asked myself this thousands of times, what can I do to stop this? The popular opinion around me was to keep sharing, keep posting, and let them hear our voices… But if you know me well, well by now, you know I never stop at the surface of things; diving deep is what I do best…

At the beginning of the war, I followed the popular opinion and shared as many posts as I could, but the views were less than 100, and it was mainly the people who are seeing the news, so I didn’t make an influence… Then I started to pray and say that we have God standing with us in truth… We all know who the bad guys are, and of course, God shall be against all Zionists!…

Moving forward, I stopped and thought that both sides are fighting for the same motive… they both think they are right, both believe that this land is for them… I blamed God, I blamed Him for all religions, and questioned so many other things that I better keep to myself…

And the inner conflict started to rise; fire flames within me were eating me alive…

I stopped praying, I questioned my belief system, and it was dark…

Until the light guided me through to see things like never seen before…

And I knew that my inner war was far more important for me than what I was witnessing on the gram.

I am not underestimating what’s happening, but I have no say in it, neither do you, or anyone that is watching from far…

It’s not our battle to fight…

Our battle is to fully submit to the idea that God knows better… To accept that you are limited and you can’t understand how God works, but you still believe in Him…

I went through a belief check all over again… I started with all these thoughts and wonders… I submitted… and now I’ll start to meditate, knowing that being in the present moment, living MY reality, will make me feel okay, will make me feel powerful, and may I be able to give out of LOVE and gratitude, to  support as much as I can… Whenever I can…To spread the Message of LOVE…

If you are reading this from the comfort of your office, living room, or bed, you too are okay!

We all have a lesson to learn from anything that is happening. Mine was to learn to stop following the popular opinion blindly and actually try to think and understand my role in this. How would I act next? Our role is not to judge or wait for actions from God. Our role is to be fully present and aware of our existence and our individual experience.