Thoughts out loud

Ambition, Motivation, and Drive, you won’t find in Budapest. Instead, you’ll find passion, love, and peace!

I was walking down the streets of Buda, all the way to Pest, crossing the liberty bridge, looking around me, scanning the scenery, the faces; nothing felt familiar to me, everything was 10 times prettier, people were chilled, no one is running, no one is angry, as if they have nothing to do, everyone was relaxing, everyone but me. However, I was the only one on vacation! As if I have anxiousness running through my veins because I have ambition. My ambition then was to cross-check all the city’s sites, take great pictures and post them on Instagram!

Everyone was accepted in the streets of Buda, but no one was trying hard to. So I tried hard to understand the logic for their acceptance towards each other, and I decided or convinced myself that maybe they accept each other because they don’t have any emotions or bonds towards each other like us ARABS. After all, they don’t care about each other.

As an Arab, I was raised to seek acceptance, validation, and praise. That was the primary drive for my achievements, first to fit in and then to stand out. But the question is why?
Who invented the bar in which we need to raise the limits we need to push? And why? What are we trying to prove? And when can we stop? Who defines those social standards? What are those Social Standards?

Away from all these existential questions and the thousands of thoughts in my head, I asked myself one more question, who would I be if these standards didn’t exist? Would I be the same person? Would my life look the same? Would I make the same decisions? My mind was about to explode, thinking about what could’ve happened. But, I later decided to pause a little, where I stopped, and Budapest kept moving.

Budapest was a slow chilling city; it moved me around a lot, visited its ups and downs, up and down my soul also, and brought me back to my presence to realize that I am where I am supposed to be, accepting it all, just the way it is. To discover that, after all, the only acceptance I needed to seek was mine.