Thoughts out loud

We hear it a lot and say it even more and mostly to ourselves, we understand it, we know we should do it but we don’t. 

What is it that stops us from doing it? Why do we insist on living in the past?!

Is it the fear of the unknown? Is it loyalty and that guilt feeling of moving on and abandon something that was once part of us, whether it’s a person, an idea, or a dream?! Sometimes it could also be the fear of people’s judgment, many possibilities which lead to the same result… If we are being stuck in the past, resisting the present we’ll become demotivated, playing victims, making no progress in our lives so we become dead inside… nothing excites us anymore and we become numb and that’s okay for a short period but this shall not take time my friends… 

If you are like me you’ll dig, dig and dig till you find the reason behind it… since I do believe that everything happens for a reason, I search in myself first and sometimes I find no answers, but meanwhile the journey of searching miraculous things happen… like re-building that long lost relationship with myself, we bond, we unite, and we make peace… My heart starts beating again, for life, for me… And I start receiving some answers, just when I stop looking. 

I become nothing but grateful, thinking of how could I ever pay back to God, and here starts another dilemma and more questions arise, like am I on the right track with god, do I deserve all this? And what I am supposed to do to keep this blessing around me and the people who I love… And not like any searching journey when it comes to God every answer leads to another question, but because I am nothing but a human I need an answer at least for now or else my mind will blow… 

Deep inside, and after experience I came to realize that our relationship with God keeps on changing, or developing if I might say, somethings completely change, and somethings simply evolve… One of the things that will never change is that I know for a fact that God loves us and wants us to be happy, which reminded me of something I’ve read in the past: 

“God is life. God is life in action. The best way to say, “I love you, God,” is to live your life doing your best. The best way to say “Thank you, God,” is by letting go of the past and living in the present moment, right here and now. Whatever life takes away from you, let it go. When you surrender and let go of the past, you allow yourself to be fully alive in the moment. Letting go of the past means you can enjoy the dream that is happening right now”.  

And since then, I stopped looking for something to happen, I started to happen and I couldn’t be more thankful… Guilt-free, alive, and thankful.